Feel Sad

I feel very bad and sick today. In the begining I thought it's the reason for the money, then I guesses that the reason is my previous effort to write the report. When I took the bus on my way home, I came to realise the key point is 'lost trust'. He is neither my close friend nor colleague, but I regard him is a trustful, kind and nice person though we have different perspectives. I really dont believe what he has done to me. One reason might be he doesn't like me for a long time, the other reason might be he envies me somehow, alternatively, he does not want me to intervene 'his' international affairs.

Anyway, he has done bad things to me, the price to write the report is that I should learn the lesson, no one deserves to trust in the job, always need to be cafeful about people whatever their attitude toward you.

Besides, I have trouble about my second round interviews, I have no idea about this part, it's likely that my brain is abscent and full with nothing. Dont know what to do and feel very pressed. But I need to find find my way shortly, can not let time goes by and doing nothing. Now I begin to reaise the difficulties of studying a PhD.